

Yep….i am getting sad…I look at old photographes and things and remember how much things can change. Things don’t necessarily change in a bad way, but they are just different. Honestly I sometimes miss high school…how “Hakuna Matata” was literally a wonderful phrase because it was true and the way I just knew everyone…its so easy just to know everyone. I want it again…I want to be able to see someone in a hallway and smile at them without it being totally out of the ordinary. I wanna know people…but at a university with over 30,000 people…it gets kind of tough. I wanna be with my friends again…I am utterly sick of living with people who talk about me behind my back…its unbearably rude and annoying on so many levels…at least in high school you only dealt with those kind of people in increments. I am just starting to see who is standing around me when the “smoke clears” so to speak…its just easier to figure out who your true friends are…but you soon realize that your true friends aren’t as true as you thought….just hypocritical instigators who don’t want anyone happy. Complaining…yep I know :)…..but there is some light at the end of the tunnel….I have an absolutely fantastic boyfriend who actually loves me :) and I love him…its just so easy with him…when we fight we fix it…when we are happy we thrive on it…and when we do anything in general we enjoy each others company…he is something I never can regret…cause if it weren’t for me leaving high school and attending this huge university or having the roommates I do have…I would have never met Adam…and wouldn’t be as happy as I am now. Cause I am happy about him :)
Complaining is an accidental oversight on my part here and I know this is sufficiently dull…but it is how I feel….
Honestly I just love the way he pushes a loose strand of hair out of my eyes, it makes me feel beautiful, which is something he genuinely believes about me. That I am beautiful. How he sits around with me when I am upset, waiting til I am okay enough to talk about whats wrong or what happened. How much fun kissing him is. I just love his impish smile, I could just start at it all day. How he lets our passionate kisses linger on his lips. How he tells me I am cute when I look absolutely a mess. How good he smells. How sweet he is to me. I love everything :)
Its amazing how much time has passed and how much has changed. I haven’t updated in ages. I feel like thats not the best thing, because I like it on here. I upload a quote every now and then, but i think the main reason is because i don’t have the time. I have so much amazing things and amazing people keeping my occupied. Sophia, my niece just turned 5 months 2 days ago. She has gotten so smart. I spent all day today and yesterday with her. She has the sweetest laugh, I could easily listen to her ramble all day long. I have these roommates who have suddenly become almost like family. They mean everything to me and we haven’t known each other that long. Still…they were there for me when I needed them the most. Issues or not…thats what matters. And there is also this boy…he is…quite amazing. I mean, he has changed my belief in a lot of things. In the way I see love. I know that no matter what, the way I am feeling right now. I don’t wanna forget it.
Sincerely,
Gloria:)
Dear Dreams,
So yeah. Lately I have been relying on you for my answers…my dramatic life has gotten so different and I sometimes don’t know how to control it. I feel its like changing and I can’t even fix it or so anything about it. My whole life is just so, Ah. haha. I am about to go to sleep. About to visit you and maybe the advice I am needing is somewhere in my subconcious somewhere. I guess I will see.
Myself

My Two Ideal Guys- Finn Hudson and Marshall Eriksen
So I am searching for these kind of guys. Tall, athletic, funny men. I just wish they existed more often. Guys I can count on. Guys I can play video games with. They don’t have to be Eric Northman hott, or Chuck Bass confident. I just want an easy going guy. Who I can look up to….literally :)